I want.

I want to open the front door to the sun and go running.
I want to loose myself in the garden covered in soil and wearing a wide grin.
I want to choose music on my player again and take the bus to the studio.
I want to turn the compost and carry heavy stones and cut high branches.
I want to call my students and watch them dance and be able to help again.
I want to plan future projects and go to the stores to buy fabric.
I want to go to the gym and I really really really want to sweat.
I want to take the trash out and I want to clear all the pots in the back yard.
I want to walk to work and carry my heavy bags and travel wherever I want.
I want to dance and feel the music inside me.
I want to choreograph and feel the movements shaping in my own body.
I want to feel whole again.
I want to stand and walk and run and jump.
I want to know that I'm strong.
I want to be me.